denied the sacrifice

my need to suck and absorb the sadness out of his eyes is strong enough to completely tear me apart.

i want to drink his tears and get drunk off his thoughts

to hug his broken heart until mine breaks itself to fix his

i want to cradle his face until it melts in my hands

to hold his gaze until i go blind

to kiss his lips until mine rot

to empty what’s left of me to make him whole.

but oh, how he resists.

he won’t take, nor does he give.

and it hurts more than breaking myself for him ever could.

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